1st May 2020 – Friday
Can you believe it’s May already. These last 6 weeks have been a blur. Every day blending into one … with no end in sight. This week has been one of the hardest weeks so far during the lockdown. I have struggled with my own personal issues this week … a lot of tears and alot of re-assurances from myself that things will be ok. My children have been amazing. They know how to make me feel better when I am struggling with anxiety and my mental health.
I had a disagreement with the hubby this week because I feel he is not taking the pandemic seriously. His argument is … “it’s just the flu and the government are blowing it all out of proportion“. I have chronic asthma so I am really not looking to catch this coronavirus. Then the Hubby says … “well if one of us gets it we’ll all get it won’t we?” But he said it in such a non-chalant kind of way, like just a matter of fact. Then he starts rolling his eyes and that really annoys the hell out of me. Maybe this is why I am feeling low mood this week. I feel that sometimes my concerns are not taken seriously by him and I am thinking of kicking him out of the house just to prove a point?
Maybe I should … it will get him off the sofa. The dent in the sofa is turning into a black hole.
When I do have low mood this happens: I retreat into my own bubble and shut out everything and everyone and spend a couple of days in bed. I use to do this alot during my period of deep depression. Why did I do this? I use to force myself to sleep because it would make the day pass quicker. And when you are asleep … you don’t feel the pain.
Today (Friday) and am feeling alot better. Having those couple of days to just accept that I am feeling low and just embrace that feeling. It is something I have learnt to do. Instead of fighting the feeling of mental struggles, I embrace it and just go with it. I have learnt that the more I fight, the more it hurts.
The rest of the week was chilled out – home school is still in session and the kids are now getting use to it. It is now part of their daily routine. There have been days when at least one of them have struggled … and tears have rolled. Most children are adaptable to change and are resilient in the face of hardship – but they are allowed to have “off days“. They are allowed to cry and resist what is put in front of them. After all, they are just “little humans“.
Devon had a great birthday last Saturday. We had a little bbq in our little garden. I got some balloons and made him a little football cake which he loved. He really enjoyed himself and was happy. He said it was the best birthday ever … because he got all the presents he wanted. I splashed out a little more than usual, I felt sorry for him because he didn’t get his football party. One of the main things he wanted was a FitBit. We got him the FitBit Ace 2 which is aimed at children. He loves it and is constantly checking his steps and setting random alarms just for the sake of it.
Despite Devon’s birthday weekend weather being great, the rest of the week was miserable. The sky clouded over in a blanket of grey and the heavens opened up. At least the few plants in my garden got a well needed drink of water.
Please check out my latest recipe blog … the queen of comfort foods: Ultimate Mac and Cheese. This is a quick and easy recipe that can be whipped up in no time and the family will love it!
The Ultimate Mac and Cheese was accompanied by some honey glazed chicken wings and our favourite sugar snap peas. Delicious!
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I hope you all have a great weekend … stay home and stay safe.
~ Boss Mum (and family) xxx